today's Mass was different..

i think that God is trying to take me further.. i told Him a few days ago that even though i had received signs that He wants me to be Catholic..i'm not yet at the point when i can take the next step.. i think what He is doing now is He's taking away all the signs - maybe He wants me to rely on faith more..or maybe He's getting me to a point where i feel relatively neutral about Catholicism and Orthodoxy and care more about doing His will. in February i didn't really want to be Catholic.. this summer however, i REALLY did. but then i was praying that He'd just change my priorities, that i would be more ready to lay down my own will..if i do, and then He leads me to Catholicism once more..then i'd KNOW it's from Him. it seems that He is answering this prayer.. i may be wrong..
but whatever is happening,
LORD YOUR WILL BE DONE!