I love the idea of just being alone with Jesus. One of the most beautiful things about religious life that I can think of is the intimacy with Him... to belong to no one else, except Him, who is the Lover of each soul. It's so easy for me to forget what He has done... how He carried the heavy Cross for love of me, was scourged for love of me, His blood ran down His face as they pressed the crown of thorns over His head.. He was crucified for love of me.. and now, He's the Prisoner of love in the Tabernacle, left all alone, and so few think of Him! I can't stand my ingratitude and distrust, - as Jesus offers me love, all I can offer Him are my errors and sins.. I'll never be able to love Him as much as He deserves, but I want to be able to love Him with all my heart. I can't seem to let go of myself.. of my own will.. but Jesus went through so much. I just want to be entirely His.. He has captured my heart so deeply and I can't ever see myself getting married to anyone else unless it is His will for me to marry and have a family. I can't talk about this to many people but even when I do talk about it, I can't seem to describe it well. Only He knows the part I can't put into words. But it's so beautiful to keep some things secret for Jesus :) my Jesus, I love You, always, always.
"O take my heart, Thou Loved One; let it be transfixed with those dear wounds for love of Thee. O wound it, Jesus, with pure love of Thee, and let it so be crucified with Thee that it may be forever joined to Thee." St. Bernard
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Ah, my dear, I share everything you have expressed here.. Jesus is a difficult lover to have, but He is the most perfect fulfillment of life when we finally reach our destination of complete abandonment.
Faith and unconditional love will get us there, because as long as we live, Jesus never changes... no matter how we change, and what we become, He always seeks us out just the same. He is ever perfect, and ever there to return to.
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