prayer of a soul that longs for God

my God, where are You?
tell me how to find You..
i will go to the ends of the world
i will do anything You ask.

my heart is restless without You
the enemy tells me, 'all is well', -
and i find myself falling asleep..
but i know my soul needs You

i long for You, my God,
- can i still call You my Beloved?
i feel a silence inside; a stillness...
but no whisper of Your voice.

my soul is like a still lake in darkness.
no wind, no movement stirs it
where are You, Holy Spirit, river of Life?
have i offended You so that You left me?

my Lord, i beg You to not leave me
my heart longs for union with You
but i am unworthy
against You alone have i sinned

the Saints say...
when a soul feels rejected
that is when God is nearest.
could it be?

in Your mercy i will take refuge
Lord, oh Lord do not turn Your face from me
i want to look into Your eyes
Jesus i wish i could feel Your embrace

but if that is for greater souls -
Jesus then let me suffer with You.
i will be as gold
purified in the fire of Your love



God desires to make you a saint; and He refuses to remove you from your circumstances to do so. - Jose Maria Escriva